This song was written at the same period with the "No God" EP material but was left out from the initial release due to sounding too different, too "unplugged" and raw to fit in...
This is one of the most personal songs I wrote during the darkest moments in the last few years. I was really struggling to put it out there.. it was a very hard decision, because.. it's just one of these songs that come from a dark place where you don't really want to go back to. Very hard to work on songs like that. Much easier to talk about hate or anger that it is about.. that kind of things.
lyrics
It's not my world - it never was
and I've been doing my worst to deserve it.
And there's a line behind the door
waiting to replace me and it stretches for miles...
and I am worthless..
I am a waste of space
and I'm a waste of your time
but I'm too dead to die -
I said hey...
I've got another lie -
I'm gonna wrap it up and everything will be
alright.
credits
from No God : Dissecting Faith [2014] (FREE),
released August 25, 2014
All music and lyrics written and recorded by Ott Evestus
Mixed by Ott Evestus, Mastered by Kristo Kotkas @ Sinusoid
Because Raymond Watts and also because my remix is the first track of the record! This is my first release under Armalyte Industries and an incredible honor to be working on a PIG song! Evestus
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